scream

@#$%!!

Maddie's old roomate moved out several weeks ago, so I moved in. I'm excited to say I've got my own place, and I'm living right down the street from my mom. :)
it's lovely.
it's just what I need. my own space. I'm so satisfied with it...
Now, I want to come home... all the time- It's my favorite place.


I've got alllll of my computer shit over here, and praise the lord, i've got internet again. =D'


I love my friends. and i love you maddie. <3 thankyou
  • Current Music
    Soul Position- Oxford You Really Owe Me

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mmmmmmm.

my life will be beautiful
if I make it that way....
I create myself by the minute. my soul. The size of my waist.
Me, is not to be some day: found.
I'm here.
I've made myself, adjusted, succombed... in every way.
and on the topic of my hardships
well, theres just too much to say.



"as a child I was afraid of the storm.... but now I welcome the rain...."
  • Current Music
    the boys, watching a movie....

i got an idea.... you should get a tattoo that says warning

"i tend to go into self-destruct mode later into my relationships...creating conflict(rip it to fucking shreds, feeeeed me false notions..)"..... Ohhhh but did I forget to mention- I'd turn the entire thing around on you.. after all is said and done?? Funny I do this over and over again, not realizing I'M the crazy one!
fuck.

but this....wass sooooo perfect. or sounded that way sometimes.

...not enough to be pattern-defeating.

your aura is just not good enough.

there's missing compounds.

missing pieces.

skewed awareness.

poor thing.
have a happy next affair.
with less weeping, I hope.

maybe someday repitition will be the key.
  • Current Music
    D4L BUSTAS
scream

blah blah blah

But as for me I'm coming to my final failure
I've killed myself with changes trying to make things better
And ended up becoming something other
Than what I had planned to be


:)
  • Current Mood
    busy
scream

livejournal.

I don't really want this thing anymore. I've had a livejournal for atleast 5 or 6 years?, and never really felt the urge to delete mine or anything until recently. (although someone did delete over 3 years of entries off my last livejournal for me, how kind)

For the sake of how often I change my mind, there will be no terminating at the moment. We'll see though.
  • Current Music
    Hrvatski- ewc4
purge

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I-ya,
I against I,
Flesh of my flesh,
And mind of my mind,
Two of a kind but one won't survive,
My images reflect in the enemies eye,
And his images reflect in mine the same time,
  • Current Music
    S.A. Smash- The Harvest