Maddie's old roomate moved out several weeks ago, so I moved in. I'm excited to say I've got my own place, and I'm living right down the street from my mom. :)
it's just what I need. my own space. I'm so satisfied with it...
Now, I want to come home... all the time- It's my favorite place.
I've got alllll of my computer shit over here, and praise the lord, i've got internet again. =D'
I love my friends. and i love you maddie. <3 thankyou
my life will be beautiful
if I make it that way....
I create myself by the minute. my soul. The size of my waist.
Me, is not to be some day: found.
I've made myself, adjusted, succombed... in every way.
and on the topic of my hardships
well, theres just too much to say.
"as a child I was afraid of the storm.... but now I welcome the rain...."
"i tend to go into self-destruct mode later into my relationships...creating conflict(rip it to fucking shreds, feeeeed me false notions..)"..... Ohhhh but did I forget to mention- I'd turn the entire thing around on you.. after all is said and done?? Funny I do this over and over again, not realizing I'M the crazy one!
but this....wass sooooo perfect. or sounded that way sometimes.
...not enough to be pattern-defeating.
your aura is just not good enough.
there's missing compounds.
have a happy next affair.
with less weeping, I hope.
maybe someday repitition will be the key.
soooo helllllo to all.
gimme some looove
But as for me I'm coming to my final failure
I've killed myself with changes trying to make things better
And ended up becoming something other
Than what I had planned to be
I don't really want this thing anymore. I've had a livejournal for atleast 5 or 6 years?, and never really felt the urge to delete mine or anything until recently. (although someone did delete over 3 years of entries off my last livejournal for me, how kind)
For the sake of how often I change my mind, there will be no terminating at the moment. We'll see though.